Is Everyone Simply Expressionless?

Mrs. Estrada is...too nice that she has an evil side. Hmmm doesn't seem to quite make sense....

Lovely Conversation in Fifth Period=

Mrs Estrada: This class is doing terrible when it comes to grades right now. (to class)

Me: *stressed angry expression on face with eyes wild*

Mrs. Estrada: SO I normally don't this especially if you guys are HONOR students BUT you're lucky that there's extra credit available.

Me: *jaw drops*

Mrs. Estrada: *raises eyeborws* WHOA! Lara chill it's just optional.

Me: *purses lips with face reddening* [how do I know this well Karina tells me that my face is bright red]

Mrs. Estrada: Ok well now we're proceeding to the media center so off we go.

(Class walks to media center)

Me: Christin do you wanna be my partner for the activity thingy...?

Christin: Yeah!

(Moments later we stumble on something and have no idea what to do. Mrs Estrada is grading ppers a little a ways so I go over to her table and wait until Sara is done asking her question to Mrs. Estrada)

Me: Hi Mrs Estrada I have a question.

Mrs. Estrada: Well if it isn't Little Miss Facial Expressions.

Me: *eyebrows raise and jaw drops in disbelief*

~Anyway the point is, is that it's finally winter break and that means no more teachers making snide reamarks about me!!!

Twilight:Deal With It you Haterz you!!!

Many of you probably don't know but I am definitely a Twilight fan. There I said it. Lately it's been a trend though if that makes sense. A lot of newbies are reading it and always talk about how they want to marry Edward and how they hate Jacob in the series. There are numerous things that bug me about this dilemma which I must undergo everyday 1) Sorry hon but you can't marry Edward because he's a fictional character 2)Why must everyone hate Jacob so...For the record I am apart of Team Jacob so there. 3)It's just plain abnoxious I mean if I read a good book I normally just talk about it with someone else who has read it and just have a five-minute discussion with that person but no when it comes to Twilight there are girls who talk about it again and AGAIN!!! Moving on, I must share my Twilight movie experience. It was AMAZING!!! I would've casted some of the female roles a bit differently but besides that the movie was perfect. Jacob's teeth were SO white!!! I loved it. Everyday I've been listening to the Twilight soundtrack because the songs are very addicting. Believe it or not but I own a Twilight jacket and a Team Jacob T-shirt. The jacket in the back says "I don't want to be a monster.." which is like my favorite quote in the whole movie. I saw the movie opening day (November 21) at a 6:45 showing with my friends Emilia aka Bobo and Becca Becca. It was hilarious!! Emilia aka Bobo actually got edible vampire teeth it was quite a sight. Anyway I just thought it would be nice to record this memorable experience. I will blog later in the near future (hopefully!) Ciao!!!! :p :]

Happy and Sad at the same Time this whole week

Well first off this week I had school...so I don't know if it was supposed to be totally great because I only had two days of school to go to and then got to miss Wednesday because we ("we"being Kent, Sleater, my Dad,Michelle,and I) had to drive to Walnut Creek for Thanksgiving. I was SO sad though because that was my boyfriend's last day in California because he's moving to Pennsylvania!!! X0 ;[ I'm serious Tuesday was SO depressing because that was the last day I could see him in like...forever. So yes I guess we'll try long-distance...great. That day I was quiet and I don't know I felt as if my heart was slowly tearing itself apart. My friends were being very insensitive though and lately I've felt like my friends haven't been TRUE friends. They're just selfish, spoiled bratz who live in their own little perfect worlds. Tuesday....was unbearable. Now Wednesday was like terrible holiday traffic and what was supposed to be an 8 hour car ride turned into a 91/2 hour car ride with a screaming baby. Not so fun. Thursday was great though because of Thanksgiving!!! I was proud of myself though for not eating A LOT which saved me a terrible belly ache so hurrah!!! Plus my boyfriend texted me like ALL day long!! It was heaven and I got to goof off with Anna and Emma at Foothill and film Randomocities which I still need to post some of those on Facebook...anyway ya and so Friday nothing really happened and same with today. Oh and on the 26 it was Emma's birthday and she's officially 14!!!!!!! SO YAY FOR EMMA!!!!!! ok well I guess that's it for now so keep reading later!!! :] :p <3>

I Need Comments w/ Advice pleeze!!

Heeyy guys! SO YAY Prop 8 is good!!!! I'm SO glad it's over!!! Anyway back to business. Alright so I have a question and I'd REALLY appreciate if I could get you're guys's inputs because I'm just curious. So here's my question:


"Do long-distance relationships work out?"

When you get the chance pleeze comment and tell me what you think about it!! Thanks!!!

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One of the Top Five best Days of The Year

It's Halloween!!! One of my favorite days of the year!!!! Today has been a pretty good day so far. School is only 8:00-12:00 and I got to miss half of school and came to school with...(drum roll please).....BRACES!!!! Ok call me crazy but I LOVE them!!!! I'm finally done with the wretched bionator and get to move on to bettr things in life...braces! When I came to school all my friends were freaking out and I LOVED the attention. I know that sounds really bratty and abnoxious but I never feel like I get enough attention so I got my time. I can't wait to trick-or-treat tonight!!!!!!! I'm trick-or-treating with Hannah, Yana, and maybe Adriane (I don't know if she's coming with us or not) and after we're done we're going to go to Hannah's house and watch Poltergeist and if the night is still young then I'm going to Becca Becca's house to watch black-and-white movies!!!! I'm going to stay up SO late!!!! Well I guess that's all my news for the day so HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :p <3>

uhhh its been 2 months..huh?

Haha you are going to laugh out loud once you hear this!!! (well I think it's funny...) ok so this whole time I thought my blog was blocked for some strange reason but it turns out it wasnt this WHOLE time. So i guess there's a lot to catch up on. well for one school...here are my periods

1) Math Transition to Alebra w/ Mr. Fabella

2) Physical Science w/ Ms. Tseng

3) P.E. w/ Mrs. Ho and Mr. Campbell

4) Honors U.S. History w/ Ms. Baldwin

5) Honors Language Arts w/ Mrs. Estrada

6) Elective: Chorus w/ Mr. Grenier

Alright so school is.....i don't know it's been unbearable because right now on the social ladder (emmajojo ive explained this to u so ur probably the only one who gets this ladder when reading this post) well im inthe lower lower class...which is the lowest basically stating that i hav no life, im a nerd, and a loner. My favortie class though is language arts because a) it's the class im doing the best so far (A+) b) my teacher inspires me and c) it's the only class where i feel somewhat....accepted.

Ok now church. For awhile I basically hated church but now it's a lot better for me and I have to go because I'm a sinner...and i need to learn! lol. So my church was doing Lights on Broadway (a musical..kinda) and I was going to do it but then thought that my mom was moving to Italy so I thought maybe I should spend more time with her. I regret doing Lights on Broadway because it looked fun but I don't know there's SO much favoritism when it came to the solos like I noticed one girl who had solos in almost all the numbers and that upsets me because the directors of the show should try to find someone new...but whatever matter of opinion. Anyway so now I'm in the ward choir and I think that's good for me and I LOVE the music!!!

In the end my mom is moving to Italy in I think I week so I'm happy for her because she'll be with her family and plus I get to visit her in Italy which is like my second home so I think I'll do ok without her.

I'm SO excited because tomorrow I get braces and that means I get to miss school for like most of the time and come back only with an hour and a half left of it. I can't wait to get braces because I want to get them over with so that I can have pretty straight teeth when I'm 16 when the real dating begins!!!

Now about Prop 8...I am SO YES!!!! It's just that I find it unfair because almost like everyday in the P.E. locker room (I hate changing....very awkward knowing that girls are looking at me...) almost all the girls are NO on 8 so they alwayz yell at me and say that I'm a gay-hater or a bigot and it frustrates me because they just don't understand the definition of marriage but i wont get too into it.

Life in general has been a bit hard for me but I'm getting through it. In a way I want this year to get over with and hopefully be a whole new changed person in highschool and be popular. Anyway right now I'm really liking this song called Face in the Hall by the Naked Brothers Band (I know I know but it's helping me get through a complicated and awkward situation at school). I'm also so loving Sally's song (you know the song from Nightmare before Christmas?) sung by Amy Lee who is like my idol and who i want to be exactly like when I'm older. Alright well I may post tomorrow because at the moment I have no life whatsoever so c u later!!! Peace IS SO out!!!! :p :] <3

Ok So YA just catchin up on the last few days.

Haaha. My brother went on the trampolene like two days ago and bust his lip and it looks kind of scary. Well wuhat the funny thing is, is that the following morning it was really swollen and Kent was all like"Michelle i look so ugly and everyne is going to hate me.."and yadayada. And Michelle you kow was comforting him and saying "It's ok sweetie no matter what we'll still love you." But then I come down stairs and I had no idea his lip was SO bad so when I saw him I said "OMIGAWSH KENT!!!!! YOU LOOK LIKE THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!!!!!!!!". Then he turns to Michellle and says "I told you!" Michelle got mad at me but it's not like i got grounded or anything.

Anyway today is August 29 and it's FRIDAY!! I LOVE FRIDAY!!! Anyway tonite Annadee and Emmajojo are coming over for a sleep over and we're gonna stay up REALLY late and be HYPER!!! Today is also a good day because i get to finish my school supplies shopping at last! We're also going to go school clothes shopping for Emmajojo. I'm also visiting Michelle's Aunt Eunice so that will be...interesting JAYKAY!! Haaha. Oh it's also my two friends' birthday so I'm gonna call them and sing them happy birthday with my family!! I'm SO excited!

Ok my two latest obsessions are JAMBA JUICE and FRED!!!!! Fred is so funny you guys you NEED to see him on YouTube. Oh speaking of YouTube when Emmajojo and Annadee are over tonight we're going to make more Randomocity's and have Kent and Mitchell(emmajojo's lil' bro) inthe video too. And it's going to be SO funny. Anyway pleeze readers comment on my blog because I love comments and they convince me that you actually care!! Anyway PEACE (is SOout)!!!!!! :p <3

In the Bay Area

So ya I am visiting my cousins. They also have blogs as well so my two best friend cousins are Annadee and Emmajojo in case you didn't know and you should totally read their blogs cuz their hilarious!! Anywayz we're havin good times here and on Friday nite we're gonna have a sleepover and make videos for youtube which i will send to Annadee cuz my dad won't let me them post under my name (go figure). So once I send them to her I will tell you readers and u can watch some very funny random things that the Andersons/May do. Ok well I'm excited for that. My cousins are starting skool over here which makes me sad cuz I know 'I have to start skool in a week. AHH! EW! o well. atleast i wont b bored and post my pathetic life's story on this here blog. O ya during the year I may not post anything so I am sorry but jus wait for next summer! which will b a gr8 one!!! cuz i get to go to ITALY!!! ok well Emmajojo wants me to go over to her house so later! PEACE(is SO out) :p <3

It's been Awhile

That's it!!! i can't take it anymore!! Sorry blog readers but I'm breaking my promise of having pics of my trip in this post but my dad is supposedly too busy to download them on the laptop so I give up!!! Ok so first things first, I had a BLAST in Arizona. It was beautiful and it was great to see my cousins again and to catch up with them. We made videos that we are naming Randomocity(s) because they're COMPLETELY random! Lol. We are eventually going to post them on youtube eventually so once we do I'll post the links for our videos on this here blog somewhere. Utah was nice I mean it isn't as calming or relaxing for me as Arizona was. Or maybe that's just Provo and Parkcity because those places were a little busy and happening it seems. I don't know matter of opinion. The reunions were enjoyable all 3 of them!!! I know it's crazy to have 3 reunions in one summer but whatever. I got to catch up with the cousins on Michelle's side as well which was very enjoyable. Haha Zack and Josh were hilarious!!! I'm sure if they weren't there I'd be bored to tears. So thanks guys! ( : So now I'm back in Irvine and I got to see Dark Knight with Queenie (I love you!) (my second time seeing it) @ night in IMAX!!! It was AMAZING!!! Queenie and I hung out a lot last week and it was SO much fun!!! Haaha thanks to you Queenie Maps by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs is stuck in my head *Wait they don't love you like I love you! Maps...* That is a really good song! I miss you Queenie have fun hiking Half-Dome! (I'm SO jealous!) I finally got to play Rockband with Taylor on her Xbox 360. It was awesome! I love that game!! These days I've also been playing Donkey Konga 2 on my Gamecube with my brother. It's also really good too! Oh and my brother, mom, and I went to Disneyland/California Adventure which was great and definitely interesting because I've never been to Disneyland with my mom (I'm not counting when I was 1). The fireworks were spectacular!!! Last night I was also texting Aaron until like 2 in the morning!! Crazy right!? Oh btw i got facebook!!! So if you have it add me!!! If you don't then get one! I finished Fablehaven and Breaking Dawn!!! Breaking Dawn was great!!!! Fablehaven...eh...not my favorite. Also I got together with Taylor, Kelsey, and Christin and we had dinner together. I haven't laughed that much in my life EVER!!! Lol. We also saw Music and Lyrics which was a pretty good movie. Hannah and I are continuing our bike rides. YAY! Exercise is AWESOME!!! I saw Mammamia and it hurts my pride to say this but I can't get those songs outta my head. Ugh..Oh Well! Anyway I think that's about it so Ciao Peeps!!! Peace Is SO out!!! :p <333

Weird I know but for some reason i'm homesick....

Ok let me be honest but I personally hate Irvine. I mean I guess it's safe and all and it has some really cool malls but have you seen the houses and the environment?? Everything's SO dang fake!!!! I mean my title says I'm homesick which I am...WHY!? I don't know I guess I miss my friends and also exercising because I've been eating so much junk on this trip to Arizona and Utah. By the way I'm in Utah right now. I have some pics of me and my cousins in Arizona but I'm going to make a whole seperate post just for that. ANYWAY!! Sorry I get side-tracked easily. Yeah so I'm on this trip and I feel like I've gained like 10 pounds or something!! I'm sure I haven't but I just feel really unhealthy. I LOVE Arizona!!! I thought I would hate it since my Grandpa Charlie was buried there but I just love the scenery AND the weather. Weird I know but I guess I seem to enjoy hot weather the best. The people are SO nice!! I wouldn't consider Irvine as my home but since I'm forced to call it my home then Irvine's my first home, Italy's my second home, and then Arizona is my third home. My best friend also lives in Arizona so that's a plus but I didn't get to visit her because right now she's in Irvine visiting her friends and all that stuff. Isn't that funny!? I'm in Arizona and she's in Irvine. Don't worry I did get to hang out with her before I left and may I say we had TOO much fun. Lol. Bridgette I TOTALLY owned you at Skip-Bo AND Uno!!! Utah is ok but it's too much like Irvine for me I don't know. Many of you would disagree with me but it's just my opinion so don't get upset with me. Right now I'm using the Best Western's in Provo Utah's computer if you're wondering. I'm waiting until my dad tells me to get off so that we can visit our best family friends. That family is pretty cool...sometimes. They moved to Utah like a year ago so I guess my Dad and stepmom really miss them. None of their kids are my age. I mean they're cool and all it's just I'm too old for them. Oh by the way I'm using my cousin Anna's line that best describes Utah (random thought just came to me so bear with me) (is that how you spell bear? I apologize for my incorrect spelling). Ok so Utah is the land of the freaking Mormons. I cracked up when she told me that because it's TOTALLY true!!!! Anyway I think I should be going now..not sure but better safe than sorry. My next post will be all about my Utah and Arizona trip in specifics so prepare yourselves for an insane post next time!! Which I will add once I get back from Utah so probably August 5. Ok so goodbye my awesomely awesome people!!! CIAO!! PEACE (is so out)!!!!! :p <3

Sundays...ugh....

Now that I see the number of comments dwindling I'm becoming convinced that not many people read my blog anymore. (sigh) Well that's depressing. Anyway ugh Sundays!!! Never anything to do!!! I'm kind of hurting right now so ya...I wish I was hurting as in being sore but sadly I'm not sore so when I say I'm hurting right now I'm talking about being depressed and lonesome. ) : Ok I need to talk about something um let's see lighter...I went shopping yesterday with Lauren!! Which was very fun but got disappointed because I got a new jacket that was $50!! Don't get me wrong it's a freakin' awesome jacket it's just that I wanted to get more clothes because I rarely shop. On Friday I saw The Dark Knight with Hannah and Yana. Ok I think I'm in love with the Joker!! His laugh is SO cool and just he's like my favorite villain of all time! Heath Ledger did a phenominal job!!! He did amazing!!!! The movie was SO good. I'm sorry but I just can't get over it!! Oh ya also while I was shopping with Lauren we went to the Verizon store and looked at phones. UGH!!! I WANT THE VOYAGER!!!!! But ofcourse I have to have a crappy phone...ugh o well. Anyway I guess that's it...Oh ya and I feel like I'm in a forlorn state of mind. I don't feel like I'm real it's weird I feel like I'm in a daze or something..ANYWAY! PEACE OUT!!! :P

Sore but Why Complain!?

I don't know about you good people but I LOVE exercise. I mean sure there's those days where your like ugh I don't want to get all sweaty or I don't want to get my butt off the couch but well atleast for me that once you exercise you feel SO much better!! Ok so at the moment I'm excruciatingly sore (weight-lifting @ 24 hour I tell you..) but for some reason I'm well. After I exercise I feel better about myself, can get better sleep at night, have more energy throughout the day, and just think faster!! Oh and my favorite kind of exercise is like an exercise that gets me sore in the morning. I know that sounds REALLY weird but for me there's like a reassurance that I was doing my body good even though I'm sore but it just makes me feel tougher. Sorry it's kind of hard to explain and some of you must be thinking "What is this crazy girl trying to say!?'. Well you kind of have to exercise for yourself if you want to understand what I'm feeling. Hahah anywayz so I'm going to the center today!!!! YAY!! With Hannah, Stefani,and Adriane!! Omigawsh SO fun I can't wait!!!! Then I'm going to D&B's later where we're ("we" being my family..ugh) are meeting my Dad's cousin's family there. I don't mean to be rude or anything but D&B's food is crap!!! Some of the games are fun there but most of them are rip-offs. So as you can tell I'm not very enthused on coming but I don't get to make the decisions so I guess I'll have to suffer through it. Ok well gottago to the Center where I'll be with my homies!!! Haaha. PEACE (out)!!!!! : P

My thoughts On SumMer

Today I woke up at 7:45 and laid in bed until 8:00 which is when I actually got out of bed. I got into my proper volleyball attire because at 9:00 I was going to have one-on-one volleyball with Mackenzie (older girl than me who is super nice and is a REALLY good volleyball player). So then I ate breakfast (a protein bar..yummy! no seriously they're really good!) After that it was time to go to the volleyball courts by my house to well obviously play volleyball (DUR!). Dang it was hot!!! But it was a good work out (: My motto a healthy and fit Lara is a happy Lara. Haha! Anyway then for the rest of the day I've been hanging out. It's been SO nice. I love summer!!! I know I know how that is a shock to you readers because if you read my very first post in June it said how I wasn't looking forward to the summer but I'm actually enoying it. ( : YAY!!! Well I'm not looking forward to the week after next week...ugh oh well my summer is still freakingly awesome!! Volleyball, staying up late, waking up early, biking with Hannah, watching movies, listening to music, texting, e-mailing, getting jobs which only means $$$, and hanging with my friends. Ohhh fun fun fun! But I do miss Queenie a lot (tear tear). Anywayz all I'm saying for this post is that summer ROCKS!!!!! : P

Frustrating!!! ...then..Melancholy...

Now readers I feel your pain from having to sit and read through one of my posts in the past where I was acting all depressed and thinking that life was so terrible because now I have someone complaining about their life to me. It's funny how we see maybe a friend or a person at school where they're all cheerful, loving, and happy but if you talk to them in a chat room or something they start shooting out things like "I hate me." or "My life sucks." Then you ask them why do you hate yourself and their best reason to explain that is to say because I do. Well what the heck!? What kind of reason is that to hate yourself? Then they'll say I just suck at life. What the heck is that supposed to mean? Maybe the reason why you hate your life or that you suck at it is because you hate yourself and you don't want to live with yourself. Key to happiness in life you guys is to love yourself because you can only be but yourself and you'll have to live with yourself for this life and the next life and I'm sure that if you hate yourself life is going to get harder to get through. Oh and just a fact is that if any of you are interested in getting married when you're older then I suggest that you love yourself because then that will teach you to love other people including that special one and I promise you that your marriage will work out if you love yourself and your spouse loves themself and if you love eachother. Hey I know that's further down the road for us but it doesn't hurt to keep it mind for the future. Ok so that's the end of the frustrating part now to the melancholy.
For those of you who don't know what melancholy means I will explain. Melancholy means your sort of mello and gloomy (feel free to comment if you beg to differ). Ay me!!! I don't know about you but isn't there ever a person in your heart that you know you won't be able to see in awhile? (sigh) I miss that person so much and I long to see their smile, hear their laugh, and watch their eyes sparkle. Why must I wait for that person? I'm sure they're having a great time wherever they are and that they have things to occupy them but what about me? I don't have anything to distract me from these feelings of longingness (is that a word..lol). Then I begin to wonder if you ever stop to think of me. Omigawsh!!! That totally reminds me of the song Think of Me from the musical Phantom of the Opera!!! (Believe it or not but I used to be obsessed with Phantom of the Opera) *Think of me, think of me fondly when we say goodbye. Remember me once in awhile please promise me you'll try.Then you'll find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free. If you'll ever find a moment spare a thought for me..* Sorry I tend to burst into song at times. Haha. Ok well my melancholy moment is over so PEACE!!! (out) :p

You wanna know what I love...

I don't know why but I have the urge to list things off that I love right now. Ok here goes:

1. friends haha this may take awhile to list off all my friends and I'm sorry if I forget you! My mind can only hold so much at a time. Becca Becca, Hannah, Taylor, Kelsey, Christin, Anna, Emma, Q , Camille, Bridgette!! (my BFF), Nipuni, Ann, Shelby (pumpkin), and anybody who reads and comments my blog!!!!(omigawsh I just went completely blank! So I know I have more but just ACH I can't think so SORRY!!!)

2. music
~bands: Three Days Grace, Linkin Park, Cold Play, Yellow Card, Evanescence, Collective Soul, Incubus, Switchfoot, Fall out Boy (sorta..), I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness, Nickleback, All-Amercian Rejects (kinda), Breaking Benjamin, My Chemical Romance (ok), Paramore (eh), Korn (good), Finger Eleven (ok), Aqua Bats (haha they're ok the songs are meant to be funny instead of musical) and I'm sure there's more I just can't think of anymore

Latest song stuck in my head: "Call Me When You're Sober" by Evanescence

3. Volleyball!!!!!!! This year I played outside hitter but next season I want to be middle back. I love hitting it's just that I like passing too and so next season I wanna try that position.

4. Food. *song* Food Glorious Food hot sausage and mustard while we're in the mood cold jelly and custard*end* Haha sorry couldn't resist. Ok so ya my list of favorite foods could go forever but I'll just put down my top five. Penne Alla Sorentina (basically penne pasta with tomato sauce and a lotta cheese!!!) , cheese pizza, oreo pizookie at BJ's, nachos, Molten Chocolate cake at Chili's. (mouth waterng)

5.Places. I love to travel so I'll put down the places that I've been and the places I wanna go.
~Been: Arizona, Utah, Washington D.C., England, Italy, obviously Northern California, and Hawaii

~Places I wanna go to: Scotland, Ireland, Paris or just France, maybe New York, Mexico, Alaska, Canada, Sweden, and many more!!!

Ok so I guess that's about it! Thanx for reading!!!!!

Is it Too Late to Apologize?

As you can see I deleted my posts from the past becasue out of boredom I'd find myself reading them. As I'm reading them I feel like I'm such a terrible person and then I feel sorry for myself. Now I just want to have a fresh start and I'm sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself because now I know that I need to move on. In a way I'd say that I love my life. Ofcourse there are those rough times along the road and maybe we tend to dwell on those instead of focusing on all the great things in our life. I want to apologize to you my readers because as I read your comments I felt all your love and support for me but then would immediately overlook them. I feel bad because I've been fishing for compliments but that's going to end now (I solemnly swear!!). I am SO grateful for each one of you. All of you definitely set a great example for me and I need to stop and think of you WAY more often then I do and just remember how well you treat me. All of you ROCK OUTLOUD!!!! I am SO blessed to live in Irvine (even though nothing happens here but atleast I know I'm safe), to go to the best school of all time, and to have all of you great people in my life! ( : Happy Fourth of July you guys!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! <3